embracing the shadow
Within the past year and a half I've undergone some massive shifts as I've traversed my path of evolution. It's been full of ups and downs, and loads of contractions and expansions. There is a myth out there saying that the path to awakening is all about light and love, and sunshine and expansive joy. It can be like that at times, but it can't be like that always. Truly, before a rebirth there has to be a death. Sometimes it can be one massive shift, but usually it involves a gradual awakening, or a series of ongoing labour pains. Nature shows us this to be true. There is nothing in nature that is always expansive and in full bloom. There is winter and summer. Hurricanes, and earthquakes. Spring and autumn.
Our society is evolving... systems are shaking down, sometimes there's a series of tremors, and then there's major moments as we've seen recently with Dr. Ford. Our planet is choking and calling out to us to listen and act. I've had a few people in the last while who've seem curious if I still believe and work with angels. Absolutely!! All the time! And I've had people who have stopped following me because they wanted their feeds to be only lollipops and unicorns. And that's totally cool! I get it. But it makes me realize how the content of my posts have shifted over the past few years, especially the since last fall.
In the Fool's journey in the Tarot, we are shown how our soul begins it's journey in this lifetime with stars in his/her eyes and confidence in their step. They are full of the light and exuding faith and love, having just come from Source. It know from whence it came! And then the journey unfolds in such a way so as the soul can grow and evolve and be a fully embodied being in this lifetime. And yes that involves love, and it also involves experiencing massive shake ups, paradigm shifts, doubt, fear, egoic death, the dark nights of the soul, and of having the courage and faith to keep going, to trust the mysterious unfolding of our lives, despite the ouster circumstances. It isn't always pretty. And that's just fine. It's exactly as it's meant to be.
And so I'd like to affirm to you that everything is sacred. Our love, our fear, our joys and successes, and our sorrows, failures and doubts. We are never for one second left adrift and alone. We might feel like it, but the mind can have a hard time holding both fear and faith at the same time. It's a big task for the brain and nervous system. So, an invitation to feel what is here. To accept and send love and compassion to those parts of us that feel less than, that feel unworthy, shameful, and dark, for as long as we push them away we can never be whole.
This is where the love comes in... that extreme love for our very selves. And as we include and embrace all the forgotten and rejected pieces of ourselves we can be stronger and more complete than ever. Yes, in the end, it truly is all about love after all.
And here we are, in the season of letting go, in October. Huge letting go, season of composting and allowing for a form of death to happen, in order to give way for new growth.
Inquiry: What are you ready to release and let go?
What no longer serves you?
What is ready to die?
Be gentle with your self as you process through this, and with gratitude acknowledge the gifts that you have received along the way. And allowing room for new birth to take place.
What will your garden grow next?
Irene Bilton specializes in Body/Mind/Spirit wellness, blending her knowledge, skills and training with her gifts of Intuition.